hi, i'm roselle
i've always been torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone and let them know exactly what is in my head, or keeping it to myself. the problem is, being outwardly unhappy pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen. i mean of course i have a couple of friends that i trust with the world, but there is only so much your friends can listen to. but on the other hand, to pretend everything is fine when it's really not is to lie to yourself from the inside out; to ignore who you are and lose yourself. so which is better? to have people thinking you are melodramatic or just seeking attention, or to drown in your own mind and live a lie? im not one of those people who are constantly depressed, i mean, im actually usually happy. either way, this is my story. this is where i can post exactly whats on my mind, and if you dont like it, if you think i'm pessimistic, or over-emotional, then i guess thats up to you.

you understand me. i love you. kquinnn* says:
*i know you like him alot & you can't just not like him, but look what this... look what HE is doing to you.
*like, hes making everything so difficult and so confusing to follow. he needs to make up his mind like he can't keep changing it because he gets kissed, or because hes with a certain person or because hes not with a certain person
*like honestly
*if his mind can change becuase of who hes around and what hes doing
*then hes just being fake & not being the real him and no ones gonna like him cos they wont know when its really him they are talking to. like you get it ?
roselle. says:
*yeah
kquinnn* says:
*like hes just being really sketchy
*like sometimes he acts like he cares , sometimes not. he likes you, sometimes not. like he cant decide who he likes more and then he'll be like "well if you kissed me first ?"
*like thats bullshit you like a girl or you dont
*& like this is making you upset, so he needs to stop.
roselle. says:
*i know.
*like now he seems like he's stopped and hes just settling with her
*but that kills me too.
*and its soo hard to still be his friend after he's hurt me so many times soo badly.
*but like, i want to be his friend
kquinnn* says:
*yee
roselle. says:
*like this is so fucking hard.
*cause i want him to be happy
kquinnn* says:
*but whats making him happy is ripping you apart
roselle. says:
*i know.
kquinnn* says:
*and hes making it as if he wants to be with you when hes not thinking about her, but when he is, he changes his mind
*like he needs to make up his mind
*and stick with it
*or hes gonna end up with no one
roselle. says:
*i know. she is going to leave him, and hes gonna come crawling back to me
*and i wont be waiting anymore