hi, i'm roselle
i've always been torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone and let them know exactly what is in my head, or keeping it to myself. the problem is, being outwardly unhappy pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen. i mean of course i have a couple of friends that i trust with the world, but there is only so much your friends can listen to. but on the other hand, to pretend everything is fine when it's really not is to lie to yourself from the inside out; to ignore who you are and lose yourself. so which is better? to have people thinking you are melodramatic or just seeking attention, or to drown in your own mind and live a lie? im not one of those people who are constantly depressed, i mean, im actually usually happy. either way, this is my story. this is where i can post exactly whats on my mind, and if you dont like it, if you think i'm pessimistic, or over-emotional, then i guess thats up to you.

she's already gone. "And when she's gone, remember, you once loved her. You once needed her. You once cared about her more than anything in the world. You can't deny that she was ever there. You can't deny what you had. You can't deny that it ended over absolutely nothing. You can't deny that, regardless, you still think about it. No other girl could ever love you the way she did. One day, you’ll realize what you’ve done. You’ll come back, and she’ll be gone."

don't tell me who i am. "I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because I like boys. I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m controlling because I get mad. I’m clingy because I like being around people. I’m greedy because I like to be satisfied. I’m naive because I’m younger than you. I’m conceited because I’m proud of who I am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. I’m unappreciative because I don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who I am because I already know."

i hate school. fml today.
first was geography. bored the whole period
then it was religion. boreder the whole period.
then it was math. so ms. fucking arab bitch teacher says we have a test. so im like whatever, i obviously didnt study. but then she tells us that instead of having the class at 3a and 3c, with 3b lunch, we have to have c lunch cause the test is too long and we arent going to finish it. so i was pissed cause like none of the other classes do that, so i do my test and im finished the entire thing BEFORE 3B EVEN STARTS and she doesnt let anyone leave the class untill like 12:10 and i was done at like 11:20. so i sat there and did nothing for like an hour.
then at like 11:50, everyone was done and bored so we were talking, and she like shrieked at us in her fking annoying voice and arab accent that we can't talk during a test. and EVERYONE was done. wtfffff.
so then i had c lunch with amanda ruffffin, who is the only person i actually like in that entire class lmfao. cause like only seniors have c lunch and im not about to like moss with some random grade twelves.
so i was like whatever, i love amanda, but her friends are annoying.
but it turned out being okay.
and then it was science and we learned the particle theory and then i went home :)

and now i have a headache.
fini.

LOL YOUR FUCKING UGLY. lmfao alright so makayla walks onto the bus, and "accidentally" smacks donkey kong in the head with her bag while walking to the back.
and donkey kong goes "bitch -.- "
and i PEE laughing.

the end.

truuuue. i'm looking at the floor. i'm looking anywhere
to try to put my head into a different place.
i'm stopping it before. before i think about
the promise to myself that im about to break.
fall into daydreams inside these walls.
i must be out of my mind.

cause i dont even know you,
but all i do is think about your face.
and i dont wanna call you,
but i wish i had your number just in case.
and i never thought someone could shake me like you can.
some things weren't designed to understand.

i hope you didn't see. i hope you didnt notice,
if you did, i hope you looked away.
i'll keep it all to me. i'll keep on running
cause it's only when im running that i feel safe
as i fall. i must be out of my mind.

cause i dont even know you,
but all i do is think about your face.
and i dont wanna call you,
but i wish i had your number just in case.
and i never thought someone could shake me like you can.
some things weren't designed to understand.

tv shows and cars that won't slow down,
i should be looking for a chance, but don't know how.
disillusion never let me down,
don't lose it now, don't lose it.

i dont even know you,
but all i do is think about your face.
and i dont wanna call you,
but i wish i had your number just in case.
and i never thought someone could shake me like you can.
some things weren't designed to understand.

understand - melanie c

oh hi marilyn monroe, you are quite wise ^_^ "i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go. things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
-marilyn monroe

i make her say i cant stop listening to this song lmfao.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xt22KvnRSL4

i love this kid a lot. roselle. says:
*k so my pez dispenser
*is
*a
*snowman :)

jake says:
*lol mines homer simpson

roselle. says:
*LMFAO.

jake says:
*just sayin

roselle. says:
*mines cooler :(

jake says:
*dont make fun

roselle. says:
*GET IT GET IT
*ITS COOL
*CAUSE ITS
*A SNOW MAN
*AND SNOW IS COOL.
*HEHEHEEHEHHEHEHEE

jake says:
*lol your a loser -.-

roselle. says:
*LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I KNOW.

the handicapped blue people who worship trees kay so im like really bored, so im gonna blog.
i have a shit load of homework which im most likely not gonna do.
and i have to do some article shit for science which i forgot at school...

alright so today is saturday. right now im sitting on the floor with a laptop, in my sweatpants, hair tied, chillin with no make up on :)
my bum hurts though cause its apperently boney and the floor is hard. i will now venture to my bed.
k im all good now.

so i saw avatar the other day. everyones like freaking out about it, saying its the best movie they've ever seen, and how they made like soo much money off it...
i thought it was kinda dumb.
its about these scientists and some handicapped guy in a wheelchair, and they go into these little bed-type-things and they turn into blue people and go to some different world
and then that guy in the wheelchair whos actually a blue person now meets some blue chick and they like fall in love
and then the humans for some reason wanna blow up some tree that the blue people like.
and then theres this huge war between the normal people and the blue people which lasted like an hour and a half.
the end.
i was like, why did i pay money to see this.

oh look, its dinner time. nom nom nom.

haaay hoe this kept me mildly entertained for ten minutes.
click and drag anywhere, like quickly.
http://www.fataltotheflesh.com/