hi, i'm roselle
i've always been torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone and let them know exactly what is in my head, or keeping it to myself. the problem is, being outwardly unhappy pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen. i mean of course i have a couple of friends that i trust with the world, but there is only so much your friends can listen to. but on the other hand, to pretend everything is fine when it's really not is to lie to yourself from the inside out; to ignore who you are and lose yourself. so which is better? to have people thinking you are melodramatic or just seeking attention, or to drown in your own mind and live a lie? im not one of those people who are constantly depressed, i mean, im actually usually happy. either way, this is my story. this is where i can post exactly whats on my mind, and if you dont like it, if you think i'm pessimistic, or over-emotional, then i guess thats up to you.

they're not secrets anymore. 001. i have eighty secrets. don't tell anyone.
002. i thought boys were simple, but they're kinda not.
003. im afraid of falling in love.
004. im afraid of losing people.
005. im afraid of getting hurt.
006. im afraid of not being good enough.
007. im afraid of taking life for granted
008. im afraid of growing up.
009. im kinda afraid of a lot.

010. i remember pretending i was cold, so that you'd hold me.
011. i remember the past, and sometimes wish i didnt
012. i hate seeing people in love, because it makes me feel lonely.
013. i judge people.
014. i try not to , but i can't help it.
015. i wish i was litlte again. life was so much easier.
016. i don't give two shits if people think badly about me.
017. i refuse to change for anyone.
018. i draw on myself with sharpies
019. it makes me angry when guys treat girls like objects.

020. and when girls treat guys like objects too.
021. i don't believe i'm beautiful.
022. i hate it when beautiful girls think they're ugly, because i'd kill to look like them.
023. i don't hold grudges; i learn from past experiences.
024. i want to feel wanted.
025. i miss how we used to be.
026. don't let things happen to you. make an effort.
027. i wish i knew who really cares.
028. i overlook the little things.
029. im often misunderstood.
030. i am far from perfect.

031. i dont need amazing advice. i just need someone to listen.
032. sometimes i like being alone.
033. i think too much.
034. i hate being labeled.
035. if i work hard on something, and it doesnt turn out perfect, i get upset.
036. i hate wasted effort.
037. i hate doing anything that i know is pointess.
038. i've never really been 'in love'.
039. i don't fall for guys easily.
040. i just want to be accepted.

041. charlie brown makes me happy.
042. i want to feel beautiful.
043. i hate feeling left out.
044. i'd rather you be a bitch to me than be fake to me.
045. i don't give a fuck. i say whats on my mind.
046. sometimes i just sit alone and doodle in my notebook.
047. don't go through my notebook.
048. im afraid that one day i'll look back realize that i wasted my entire life.
049. he said he regretted every moment he spent with me.
050. i hope he was lying.

051. im afraid that no one will ever actually love me
052. i miss you.
054. i think i'm a good listener.
055. don't tell me you love me. SHOW me.
056. no one looks like the girls in the magazines.
057. i get caught up in the moment.
058. im a dreamer.
059. im only joking around, but im afraid of leading him on.

060. i secretly want to punch so many people in the face.
061. people used to joke and call me anorexic.
062. it wasn't really something to joke about.
063. i would risk my life for a friend.
064. i wish life had a rewind button.
065. i hate having restrictions.
066. when i say nothing's wrong... something's wrong.
067. i'll decide who i want to be.
068. i can't listen to that song anymore, cause it reminds me of you.
069. i hate seeing happy families, or happy couples.
070. i want to be happy too.

071. my friends are my everything.
072. knowing someone out there understands me means the world to me.
073. there is no such thing as perfection.
074. sometimes i think that someone could be reading my mind.
075. is that weird?
076. sometimes i wish i was pretty enough to turn heads.
077. i hate people who think they're amazing, but really arent.
078. im afraid of making the wrong decisions.
079. i never really got to know you, but i miss you.
080. i would give anything to be someones everything.