hi, i'm roselle
i've always been torn between wanting to tell my story to everyone and let them know exactly what is in my head, or keeping it to myself. the problem is, being outwardly unhappy pushes people away, no matter if they say they're always there to listen. i mean of course i have a couple of friends that i trust with the world, but there is only so much your friends can listen to. but on the other hand, to pretend everything is fine when it's really not is to lie to yourself from the inside out; to ignore who you are and lose yourself. so which is better? to have people thinking you are melodramatic or just seeking attention, or to drown in your own mind and live a lie? im not one of those people who are constantly depressed, i mean, im actually usually happy. either way, this is my story. this is where i can post exactly whats on my mind, and if you dont like it, if you think i'm pessimistic, or over-emotional, then i guess thats up to you.

"i love you" isnt something you can just say without meaning. before i start this, i just have to get through your tiny brainless heads that i'm not trying to be stereotypical. i know that not all guys think like this, but it has kinda bothered me for a while that most do.

its like, little girls have stories read to them by they're mothers like cinderella, and snow white. they're all about a princess who meets the perfect guy, and they live happily ever after. thats not how love really works.
in the stories, they never say "the princess loved the prince, and the prince didnt really love the princess. he really just liked her big tits and a nice ass. so he treated her like shit, jumped into bed with her, and then went to find another princess to bang."

guys will have a "girlfriend" for a week, and then dump her for something better, just to say that they have a girl ? then all the girls get hurt, when all they really wanted was love.

now tell me this: how is it that a guy can have a girlfriend and tell her how much he loves her, then 2 days after they break up, manage to get another girl and tell her that he loves her ?
this just doesnt make sense to me.


i dont see how he finds the need to treat her like garbage when she treated him like he meant the world. then he just leaves her to chase the next girl.

mm. promises mean everything, but once they're broken, sorry means nothing.

fourth week. fourth week of school? lawl .
i joined the photography club. i learned how to take pictures using an empty coffee tin? pretty cool. our teacher's a little weird though. i go to ask her something , and shes like 'yeahyeah' and like disappears and goes to help someone else. theres this guy in the photo club with me who reminds me exactly of someone i hate. exactly. i dont even know the kid, but i already dont like him because of it .
YO. THE BUS RIDE HOME IS ALWAYS SO FUCKING LIVE . we're like jumping on the seats, running down the aisle, hanging from the ceiling, and the bus driver doesnt care. i like the bus driver. i think his name's Jerry.
what else was i gonna talk about? oh yeah, retreats.
my homeroom class is going on a retreat. when i think of a retreat, i think of myself running away to a hot, sunny, paradise beach, and laying under palmtrees in the sun. it kinda bursted my bubble, cause we're retreating to a church. some retreat that is . i'd rather be in school. i lied.

YEAH SO WANNA KNOW WHY IM WRITING THIS? im gonna tell you anyway. im waiting for kailyn to be done her homework so that i can go over to her house. plus i havent blogged in a while.
yeah so. my life is pretty uneventful.
IT WAS PRETTY FUNNY. youknow all my other recent blogs about that one guy that said he was 'moving to bc' ? YEAH HES ALL LIKE  " OMG IM MSGING YOU ON THE PLANE RIGHT NOW. IM ON THE PLANE WITH MY LAPTOP." then later he was like "OMG IM FULLY IN BC, AND I HATE IT HERE, YO." yeah me and kailyn three-way called him at his 'old house' in fucking mississauga. he picked up. i asked how moving was. he said 'fuck you' and hung up :)
i love life , just saying.

oh yeah. i'd just like to say that IONA S.S. IS JAM-PACKED WITH SEXY GUYS. well actually, theres only a few. but they're pretty damn flawless, so they make up for everyone else :)

alright,well kailyns done her homework, and now i am preparing to venture to her house, which is about 6 feet away from mine .
seeyah ♥.